I have been so stupid

Not news. I'm sure I've talked about this somewhere before. My whole life has always revolved around one principle: Always assume the worst outcome so that you're prepared for it when it happens.

It was sort of like a self-defense barrier to me. By preparing for the worst outcome, I wouldn't be as strongly disappointed as I would be. I had called it a realistic approach to things in my life, and I would also make sure to balance out the negative and the positive aspects of every single thing I was dealing with. All this while still maintaining a neutral attitude

I can't say that this method was a bad idea though. Being a thoroughly positive person has never worked out for me, as being someone who can't handle failures and hardship well. 

Looking at the dark side is a way of looking out for myself, while thinking of the bright side gives me hope that things could get better. I am my own motor and brakes. 

The other day, however, I thought about my life a lot (as usual) in conjunction to something I learned quite recently. It'd about the Law of Attraction: which is basically a belief that you alone have the power to attract the things you desire in your life just by directing your thoughts and attitudes toward it. 

Strange times

This last few weeks I was starting to miss my Instagram account.  I love photography, and taking pictures of things like nature, sceneries, or anything I can find deep meaning to. I am used to sharing my pictures on facebook, but I was starting to thing I wanted a wider audience for my next themed-project. I had quit instagram after I lost my iPod, right on my last year of high school. So after two years I logged in for the first time. 

And well, it didn't feel very good