I have been so stupid

Not news. I'm sure I've talked about this somewhere before. My whole life has always revolved around one principle: Always assume the worst outcome so that you're prepared for it when it happens.

It was sort of like a self-defense barrier to me. By preparing for the worst outcome, I wouldn't be as strongly disappointed as I would be. I had called it a realistic approach to things in my life, and I would also make sure to balance out the negative and the positive aspects of every single thing I was dealing with. All this while still maintaining a neutral attitude

I can't say that this method was a bad idea though. Being a thoroughly positive person has never worked out for me, as being someone who can't handle failures and hardship well. 

Looking at the dark side is a way of looking out for myself, while thinking of the bright side gives me hope that things could get better. I am my own motor and brakes. 

The other day, however, I thought about my life a lot (as usual) in conjunction to something I learned quite recently. It'd about the Law of Attraction: which is basically a belief that you alone have the power to attract the things you desire in your life just by directing your thoughts and attitudes toward it. 

2016 so far

Needed to post an update, so here I am! Hello, yes, I'm still alive.
How are you guys doing?  Fine? Good for you. Not fine? Oh,  I'm sorry. I hope you'll feel better.
Yep, now, don't ask me ''How are you?''. If you're reading this and you happen to know me, here is something to keep in mind. Never ask a person like me the question ''How are you?''.
'Cause frankly, I don't know the answer myself and I'll lie with the classic ''I'm fine'' so as not to sound like a drama queen.
I'm a person with lots insecurities and fears. And this year has been the probably worst year of my life. I have been mostly unhappy and lots of bad things have happened.

How to pick yourself up from depression

It's been two years since I have won from depression and suicidal thoughts. I really think of myself as a strong warrior. But I think we can all agree that no matter how brave you are or how successful you become, depression is not something you can easily get rid of. There are days when it comes crawling back to you.
Even if things have been going great and smooth until then, I always get caught in some days where everything seems wrong. Like I'm not really getting anywhere with my life. It is an internal struggle that not many people around you might understand, which is why you feel you're completely alone.

So, this is what I do.