Day #2: Where you would like to be in 10 years

from the 30 Day Blog Challenge

In 10 years, I'll be 30. Wow. I guess I've never really thought about that far. When I hear the age 30, I picture myself as granny-old, but it's not really that old, right?
But no, I don't really know how things would be like after 10 years. Not to make this post depressing, but I used to think I would die young.
Anyways, here are a few things I can view about my dream future. There is no ranking. I'll just write as I think about them:

1. Have an awesome job
2. Be insanely rich. bwahahahaha
3. Earn enough money to support my parents.
4. Buy a house for my parents
5. Live in my own apartment with my very own huge library!
6. Own a pet (still undecided on a puppy or a cat, since penguins are apparently not allowed as domestic pets.) 
7. Graduated from med school
8. Travelled to Japan and Korea
9. Volunteering abroad
10. Travel to aesthetically beautiful places for a nature photography project
11. Published a book or two (!)
12. Can play piano and violin

This post is really nothing serious, and I'm writing it in a rush. I've listen a bit of my goals and a bit of my bucket list. I had to look at what other people wrote about this same question. A lot of them had written about getting married and stuff. Who knows? Maybe I will, or not. It's not something you can plan. If I find someone special, good for me!

Mainly, what I wish for myself in 10 years, is to be someone happy and successful at doing something I love. Something that would make my parents beyond proud of me, 'cause nothing in the world can make me happier than that. I want to surround myself with people who believe in me and get rid of all the negativity in my life. I hope to be a much more mature adult by then, who can make her own decisions. I want to advance in my career, but also accomplish things around my hobbies, like music, photography, and writing. I also want to give back my gratitude to the world that has made me happy by volunteering. Perhaps in Africa or in any other third world country, where help is needed. 

10 years is a long time, so I can only predict this much so as not to hold my expectations too high. I look forward to see how life will treat me! 

And I wish you all the best with yours.

^_^ 

p.s.- Also, I hope this shoes will be a thing by then. 

30 Day Blog Challenge: Day #1

(Before I start, I just want to say that I will writing up these challenged like some sort of ''diary entries''. So like, discussing the topic as well incorporating a little bit of what's going on in my life at the moment. Ugh, I'm not sure how this will turn up, but I hope you'll enjoy reading them! ^_^ )

Day #1: Discuss your current relationship/being single

I had started writing this post during Halloween weekend.
And I don't know... I just wanted stay in bed all day and watch a really sad movie that will destroy me to tears.


Which is so unlike me. I'm usually quite hyped about Halloween and celebrate it with Tim Burton marathons...
I'm not sure I can recognise my emotions right now: I feel tired but I am okay with it. I don't feel like quitting or giving up any of the activities keeping me so busy. In fact, the feeling of accomplishment is really overpowering the depression that sometimes sneaks its way into my mind. Or maybe I'm just getting old...
So yep. Back to this challenge, and let me use this opportunity to talk about a few facts people say, real quick:

Juggling Life As I Go Along: Uni + Family + Job + Me

In about two more months, I am going to turn 20! Somehow, when it occurred to me that my life has been going on for 2 decades, I felt blessed and I felt like panicking. Like, I kept thinking that maybe I'm supposed to hurry the hell up and get things done, enjoy the youth I'll never get back, make a fixed future plan which outlines my next decade with minimum detail, etc.
But of course, I'm panicking for nothing. As usual. Time, no matter how hard you try to predict and prepare, cannot always be planned. 

Like last week, we were supposed to have a Chemistry mini test about atoms, which was the most basic stuff you will learn in the course. Supposed to be easy as pie, right? Acing the test guaranteed? Oh, nope. Turns out I actually forgot to round off the number of neutrons... After all the time spent revising, I screwed up on the one thing that was supposed to be the easiest. My academic pattern has always been like this: I get the easiest things wrong and the hardest things right, which is why I never underestimate revising for easy topics. I would spend time revising the alphabet as well if I was to be tested on it, because you never know what might be the next thing I stumble over. Nevertheless, I felt really bad after the test. Even though it was a mini test, I couldn't let it go and I was upset about it for 2 days straight.



So yeah, things don't always go according to plan. And I shouldn't be worrying that I'll be turning 20 with many regrets, which no one can ever avoid. There will always be one regret you cannot let go.
I have always been the one to be scared about the future. Especially in high school, I was terrified of the future. I used to think that at that time I was doing a good job with handling the present, when in reality I was just lying to myself and sugarcoating the fact that I was running away and refusing to think about the future. In short, I was a mess on the inside.

When asked to picture what I imagine my future to be like, I could see a blank page. Or me, waking up everyday on really cold and freezing mornings, alone and sad. I was going through depression at that time, and I didn't really have a proper guidance or understanding on what to do to shape my future. As for career-related stuff, I couldn't really see ''open doors'' like most of my classmates did.
The resources I had at school weren't particularly helpful to me. When I moved to London, I found that there was an ocean of opportunities and second chances to rebuild yourself; which I never even knew was possible. I thought that it was all too late to start again and give my full potential at another shot toward my dreams. But here I am! It happened. I am working toward where I want to go, and suddenly my future wasn't a blank page anymore. Replacing the blank page are now a pile of drafts, different plans and futures I am working on and I get to choose which one to finalize.

Things I'm exceptionally bad at

Hello! Today I would like to share a little bit about myself: exposing the worst sides of my personality and things I absolutely dread. (Not in any ranking order).

I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!!!

It was on one fine morning, on September the 1st, that I fulfilled the first prophecy almost everyone has to go through before mastering the art of adulting.

hahaha Like seriously, when I was a kid, I used to think that driving is the definition of being a proper grown up. And when the examiner told me I did it, it suddenly hit me that I really am one; even knowing the fact that I would be turning 20 this year had not effect on me whatsoever. #priorities :p

''Me Before You'' by Jojo Moyes

My rating:✪ ✪ ✪ ✪ ✪ ✪ ✪ ✪ ✪ ✪  5/10

Book cover rating: ✪ ✪ ✪ ✪ ✪ 2/5

One book in one gif:

I've had this book on my ''Someday'' list for a long time, and Ed Sheeran finally convinced me to get up and read it. I watched the trailer of the movie that is about to come out and the next day I found myself buying the book on my Kindle. And all the time I spent reading, the movie soundtrack by Ed Sheeran, ''Photograph'', was stuck in my mind. Even though I only heard the song two times and couldn't remember all the lyrics, and I loved the song so much that it might have influenced how much I enjoyed the book. So yes, whatever I'm writing next may or may not be biased.
(Not to mention that the choice of casting Sam Clafflin as Will Traynor already looks really promising!)
If you're looking to read ''Me Before You'', I really recommend listening to ''Photographs'' by Ed Sheeran first. Here it is:

Confession: I read it in a rush because I had so much to do but I couldn't put it down! So I did not have time to analyse the details as I usually do with all my books.